Youth Blues

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2010-02-28T20:09:00.001-08:00

i know when the time comes

everything will fade away.

i am sure that i won't even be sad

about this gradual fading.

i won't remember you so i won't miss you.

but unfortunately i am alive now

and miss everything that are dead.

dead body and dead voice of you.

even when you are here,

with me,

you are not here,

with me.

i don't believe in love

2010-02-01T00:48:00.000-08:00

it's so temporary and for convenience.

i've never done it but i think i am fine without it.

even if i die tomorrow i am going to try my best to not regret.

love is superficial.

love is only for hotel.

love doesn't have tomorrow.

you just call it love because there is no other name for it.

it's just a chemical stimulation.

not real.

it never was.

this is just my dungeon.

you don't have to come inside.

no more wonder

2010-01-13T20:17:00.001-08:00

past = present = no future

two bohemians

2010-01-03T13:33:00.000-08:00

the most beautiful ones.

sarangeeran

2010-01-03T12:41:00.000-08:00

내가 보이긴 할까

너 있는 거기서

달콤한 유혹이 너의 눈을 가려버린 지금

언젠가 내게 말했지

진실한 사랑은 정해진 룰에서 벗어나지않는 거라고

그럴 수도 있겠지

우리의 삶의 정답이란 없는걸

오랫동안 꿈꿔온 사랑이 다를 수도 있겠지

들어봐, 나의 사랑은 함께 숨쉬는 자유

애써 지켜야하는 거라면

그건 이미

사랑이 아니지.

if we have to try that is not love anymore.

*

2010-01-03T12:22:00.000-08:00

We are all so complicated, and then we die.

We are a subject one day, with our vanities, our loves, our worries,

and then one day, abruptly, we become nothing but an object,

an absolutely disgusting pile of shit.

We pass very quickly from one stage to the next.

It's very bizarre.

It will happen to all of us, and fairly soon too.

We become an object you can handle like a stone,

but a stone that was someone.

—Christian Boltanski

highway

2010-01-03T12:15:00.000-08:00

life is so difficult and complicated

my bro suggested that i should feel the bottom

while i am young

and i asked what if i die

he said that dying is the easiest way to get out

so it's not cool

and i said maybe someone needs some easiness since it's so difficult

and the question is going on and on and on ...

i don't know if these are pleasant

2010-01-02T20:30:00.000-08:00

winter is so long

2010-01-02T20:12:00.000-08:00

so i am running on blog.

2 hours of bus ride

2010-01-02T20:02:00.000-08:00

i spent the coldest night of my life in toms river.

but i met the warmest people.

boys drool ii

2010-01-02T19:56:00.000-08:00

I love her more than you love me.

2010-01-02T18:24:00.000-08:00

call summer,

2010-01-02T17:14:00.000-08:00

ask if it can come faster.

beauty can die. or never.

2010-01-02T16:19:00.000-08:00

die in tokyo

2009-06-04T23:59:00.001-07:00

why not, honey?

Sorry.

hopeless attempt of sex

2009-06-04T23:06:00.000-07:00

she tried. (clap clap)

Sorry.

a cup for this summer

2009-06-03T12:44:00.000-07:00

I just needed something to do for this summer.

Sorry.